i've got a million little things buzzing around in my head tonight.

sunny finally going down the big slide by himself.

a friend calling me in tears.

sunny trying to take a shower with kim when she stopped by on her way to a party.

"are you grown-up, mommy? do you wear a big hat?" (?)

sailor climbing all of the way to the top of the playscape by herself, and trying to fly down the
slide (don't worry, i caught her, and no one was hurt).

a strange moment of third person vision as i was walking towards sunny yesterday with sailor on my hip: that this is my life, and i have a small boy and a baby on my hip. a strange mother-life. and now when i see pictures of other young moms (even, or especially, pictures of my mother or jon's mom), baby on hip and toddler grasped by the hand, i think: i am there, too. this is now what i am. what we are. very odd, and a little humbling.

the relief of having jon home at a somewhat reasonable hour after several nights of being away. my anxiety level just drops considerably knowing that i am not the only one in charge. :) and now, that said, i am going to enjoy a few moments of his company before dropping off to sleep.

good night.